Letter to Addison

Dearest Addison,
Right now as you sleep cozy in your bed millions of thought and emotions are flooding through me. I can honestly say this is my very first letter to you. I guess because I feel you and I have a pretty open relationship and if I have something to say to you I pretty much just tell you. I tell you on average a million times a day I love you, I have and ALWAYS will kiss your sweet face, I hold you close every opportunity I get, sometimes I make you stay a moment longer then you want in my arms just to get that extra squeeze. You are growing so very fast.
Daddy and I were looking through some videos of you last night and I must say we both are smitten with you. You have rocked our world for the past three year and I love love love being your Momma. I could never put into words how very much we both love and adore you. I know that I get frustrated and loose patience with you but that is something inside of me that I need to work on. Being a parent is not an easy task, so many decisions, worries, good times, bad times and down right hard times all so very worth it. Your Daddy and I try so hard everyday to make a good life for you. Daddy goes to work day in and day out so that Mommy can be home with you. My being home has not had to go without sacrifice. We don't get to do all the things we want to, can't always go out to eat, can't just buy things on a whim, but all of those sacrifices are worth being here every morning when I hear your sweet little voice saying "Mommy I'm awake" and hearing the sweet little patter of your feet. I love spending my days with you. I can truly say you are my very best friend. I love to share with you all that I have (A skill you haven't quite mastered yet, but we are working on it).
I just know in my heart of hearts that you are going to make the most amazing big sister. You have such a nurturing side to you. I watch you play with your dolls and you are always very attentive to their every need. I know you will take this baby under your wing and teach her or him how to do things. Just hearing you talk about how you are going to change diapers, bathe the baby, sleep with the baby, feed and play with the baby. I love it when you talk or sing to my belly. My favorite is when you kiss my belly and tell the baby how very much you love her (even if it is a him despite how adamant you are about a sister I know you will love a brother just as much.
This year was he first year I cried on your birthday. Partly because of my hormones I'm sure but, mostly because you are no longer a baby and haven't been for some time. I have watched you grow and change day by day week by week month by month and year by year. I can't believe how time has flown. Seems like just the other day two clueless parents brought you home having no idea how great their lives were going to be. We thought we knew what love was, what it meant to be fulfilled, how fun holidays were, before you were here but, I can assure you we didn't. Having you is the greatest joy I have ever known. Everything is so much more fun with you. The amount of laughter in our house has doubled since you were born. I get so excited to show you new things and go new places with you. Your reactions to things are so wonderful. You make me feel like a kid again.
I wasn't sure if I wanted to have another baby because I didn't think I could ever love another baby. If there is anything that I have learned from the experience of being a mother it is that my love is endless and there is so much love in my heart that I could definitely love another baby and already do.
In closing I want you to know how very special and dear you are to my heart. You are my first born. You are the only you there will ever be no one could ever replace you. I have loved every moment with you. As a baby I remember getting you to sleep at night and after you were asleep for a few hours I missed you so bad I thought about waking you up just so I could see you. You are by far the greatest gift I have ever received. You have taught me so much, you have molded me into the mother I am today. Thanks for your patience with me and your father we are still three years into this journey and learning all the way. God has blessed this family beyond measure and life is only going to get better with the birth of your baby brother or sister. I look forward to seeing you grow into the role of big sister. Continue to be the wonderful, sweet, intelligent, thoughtful, imaginative, talkative, little girl you are. You mean so much to us and we love you.

Love Always and Forever,
Mommy and Daddy