Mason is changing so much. The past seven weeks have flown by with the exceptions of night time which used to drag on since I was awake most of it. Things are much better in the sleep department now a days. I tried not to focus on the lack of sleep this time because I knew eventually the child would sleep and sleepless nights would be but a memory. I can't stress how very much I love this little man and how grateful I am to be his Mommy. Addison, Kevin, and I are just in aw over him. He is the perfect addition to our family. I feel like for the moment our family is complete. I'm still unsure if we will have any more children but for now I'm in love with my two perfect children.
I began making this photo montage for Kevin for Father's Day and I got to boo hooing over how my Addison has grown. She is really getting so very big. Looking back over this blog she has changed and grown so much. Seems like yesterday we brought this little blob of pink home and just sat there and starred at her with no clue on what to do with her. And then 3.5 years later we brought home a blob of blue and still didn't know what to do. I guess you just learn as you go and you just have to trust in your self and the decisions you make for your family. I feel like I have really grown and changed throughout this blog. Having kids is wonderful but it does change a person and not always for the better. I can admit to my shortcomings maybe sometime a little to honestly but my patience (of lack there of) has really gotten the best of me. I used to run a classroom full of 13 two year olds and hardly ever lost my patience but now I'm always loosing it. There are times I really question myself as a Mother. I wonder if I'm cut out to do this job at all but then I remember that I am human and make mistakes and I have to pick my battles, and just take some things in stride. I repeat to myself all the time that three is just a phase (so we hope) and my sweet girl will be back very soon. I know that Addison is just trying to express herself and her independence and Kevin and I get in the way of that at times and it frustrates her. We have been dealing with the phrase "I don't like you". Which the first time I heard out of her mouth was devastating but I have learned that it isn't me or Kevin that she doesn't like; it is the choices we are giving her. I try and validate her feelings so she doesn't' feel completely shut down but there are times where I just get tired of hearing it. I have even asked her how many minutes she was going to not like me and that is how long she can be in time out. She always comes back with, "No minutes Mommy, I love you."
Addison is getting too smart for her own good. The questions she asks me and the words she uses to describe things just blow me away. Sometimes it is hard to believe she is only three. Jokingly the other day I asked her to watch Mason while I took a nap and she said without missing a beat, "No Mom you have to watch Mason and Me. You are the one that prayed to God for a baby in your belly, not me."
Another time I was complaining to Kevin about something and Addison looked at me and said "Mom, just go with the flow." She told me in Target that some baby doll was exquisite. She knows what elasticity means and can tell you which balls have good elasticity. She asked me out of the blue what morale means. I just feel like each day she is getting wiser and wiser and has such a hunger to learn all there is to know about life.
Mason on the other hand, is just beginning to smile and coo. He already has a big personality and appetite! The boy loves to eat, like his Momma. Addison get her appetite from her Daddy (Dashy). I love early morning with Mason. It is our one on one time. He is all smiles in the morning. He has the sweetest deep dimples. I love it when he coos at me. I know he already has lots to say; I mean how could he not with Addison as his sister. She still just loves and dotes on him. She prays such sweet prayers for Mason. Kevin got on his iPhone her praying for Mason and Mason just grinning from ear to ear. Mason is just such a happy baby. He already has so much love to give. I just know he is going to be my little cuddle bug. We love to snuggle in close at night and just love each other. I can't stop kissing him much like I did Addison.
Addison has been needing her Mommy more lately. She always seems to need something when I'm feeding Mason. I try to cover all my bases so I don't have to get up and get anything while nursing but somehow she always is in need of something. She has been requesting that I put her to sleep at night which used to be reserved for her and Daddy but I will take what I can get. I do love reading to her and have really missed it the past seven weeks.
All in all life is fantastic. I love God, I love my family, and I'm really starting to settle into this new life. I am no where near having a set schedule or a strict routine but that is all over rated in my opinion, any how. I have a ton of dreams and aspirations to achieve but for now my greatest dreams have come true; I'm a wife to a wonderful husband and father, a Mommy to two wonderful children and daughter to the best parents on the planet. I'm surrounded by God's love and blessings. I could not ask for more.
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